Unlike many people, turning 30 last year didn't scare me at all. I actually embraced it! Now don't get me wrong, it's not like I donned a housecoat and a pair of slippers!! I'm still a kid in my head and love to go out and have the craic but I am also not ashamed to admit that I love staying in at weekends to watch The Late Late (ok a little shame there, but I can take it!!). Turning 30 for me was more about realising how lucky I was with everything in my life, feeling confident in my own skin and recognising how much I have grown compared to when I was in my early 20's. Back then, I thought I knew it all and thought that I'd learned all I had to learn!!!Looking back at myself in my early 20's now, I realise that I really didn't have a clue about life nor did I have the answer to everything. I felt so differently about myself and relationships with others....I was the ultimate crowd-pleaser, bending over backwards to try to keep everyone happy, never being able to say "no" for fear of ruining a friendship/relationship. Now I know that if I can't do something someone asks me to do, they won't actually fall out with me or hate me forever!! I've learned to be able to deal with issues/dilemmas/problems in a completely different way and hopefully, a better way.
Today I was questioning myself about a lot of different things and though I've definitely changed and matured in the past few years, I still don't know it all and I'm still learning about myself. I asked myself "Is there ever an age when we feel like there's nothing new we can learn about ourselves? When I'm 40/50/60, will I still be learning about myself? And if so, can we ever really know exactly who we are?".
I know myself now a hell of a lot better than I did 10 years ago:- I know what I want to do with my life & the things that make me happy, the type of guy that I want to end up with & more importantly, the type of guys I definitely don't want to end up with, how friends should be treated and how they should treat me, how to be decisive (with the exception of when I'm hungover, still haven't mastered that!), how to stand up for myself when I feel I've been treated unfairly and lots more! But, what will I be able to add to my list when I hit the big 40, 50, etc??
It's all very exciting really!! All of this was going through my head (I tend to think ALOT!!) and then I picked up the thought for today from Rhonda Byrne's The Secret and check out what it said:
"Sometimes, when we don't have the courage to change, everything changes around us to direct us to a new path.....
...You cannot stop yourself from growing - evolution requires it."
Pretty appropriate :)
Have a FAB weekend. I'm off to get myself ready for The Late Late !!!
Luc xxx
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